I gave up my chris brown concert ticket bcoz I had my exam in the afternoon and I had no mood to even go anywhere but home after spending the night b4 on my chair for 12 hours str8. This is what u get when u relac one corner for months! I sound like an old granny who goes home after exams.. this is really the ultimate.
My eating habits are really fucked up now. I gorge myself with chocolates for one day and lose my appetite the next bcoz of too much gorging the day b4. Try eating a whole tin of milo. EAT IT. I guarantee that u wont touch chocolates or anything sweet for that matter, for a month.

I need to find a place for next semester soon. Hopefully when we come back, there will still be apartments available in the city. I swear its the only place to live or u will feel that ur day ends at 5pm and that u're gonna starve if u dont stock up on food NOW. Money should just rain on me now. car/apartment/shoes/holiday/new cam/new laptop.. the list can go on forever.. speaking abt car.. I have to retake everything again!! This is a big joke man. Not only do I have to finish learning within the summer holidays, I have to pass it or die. No car liao. No plans. Nothing. Boh liao. great.
 

Now to control myself..in every sense of the word.. oh ya happy belated halloween y'all! I miss murph/nadia/pris/joyce/alofa/wanton mee/hot weather/ chilli padi soooo much.

Hmmm my second day was interesting. I sat on a wrong bus, went almost to Gold Coast, got caught in the rain, was stranded in the middle of nowhere, got picked up by some loser ang moh tt thought just bcoz I'm chinese I know how to fight. SRSLY!
 I'll post pictures when I'm not using pre-paid DIAL UP bcoz it takes one million years just to upload one photo. lol.

so. I'm really freezing my ass off and whoever that said " oh! its not that cold in brisbane.. just bring a sweater, it'll be fine" I'm gonna stuff my dirty panty into ur mouth. I'm like sitting in the kitchen wearing 4 layers of sweaters plus a scarf and I still feel as though a really strong aircon is blowing at me. 

So I did my student card the moment I touched down, walked up and down the school and promptly lost 5kg just walking up the hill. The school is humongous and really foreign. I don't see anything that reminds me of home and well, that had my stomach churning. I felt rather lost and awkward. I didn't feel like I belong there and hopefully, I'll feel differently after I move in with my housemates.

ll'l be heading to the city tmr just to check the clothes and stuff out so.. hopefully I can get some really nice coats bcoz what I have been wearing is for vivocity aircon.  

Oh well, more updates when I dont feel so cold and stifled because I havent shit in 5 days.

Today I was holding my pee from 6:30pm to 7:30pm which is why I am writing about this here so as to not forget this day. 
I was surfing the net stalking people yet again ( I decided to name it surf stalking yea ok) SO anyway I need to type this in an ultra lightning speed now bcoz my tuition teacher from the dead is here to teach me urgh math. Ok so the point IS, I tried to open the toilet door even though I knew that the door was stuck with the floormat underneath it and bcoz my brain registers only the opening of the door and not the mat being stuck ANd the fact that I really needed to pee what happened next was that the door slammed into my face bcoz I ran into the supposed space which allows me to be in the toilet. I am not sure whether u get it but in a nutshell: never take things for granted. Yea this is what I learnt from this. You can learn from it too. Thanks. ok bye.

Havent been updating in a while man. In short, I just wanna get the A levels done and over with.

I'm very sure there's like 2 of me living inside me. 
Firstly, I talk to myself. OUTLOUD. It's one thing to debate with yourself in your head, another to actually talk to yourself outloud. srsly.

I'll be lying on my bed thinking about things and trying to solve my problems at hand and suddenly, I'll just shout at myself and say stop it! What's the matter with you?! The past is the past and theres nothing u can do but to move on and you can only rectify the situation by learning! And then I'll ( as in the other me) be lost in thought for awhile and then I'll start shooting my other self with questions that needs to be answered. Weird huh.

Anyway, these past few days hasn't been kind to me. I have been getting very little sleep and more often then not, I'll be cranky. I guess its very unnerving to see everything happening so fast and you just don't know which step to take. I told him yesterday. I told him that I was confused and to leave me alone.. at least until I feel better haha. The moment I told him that, I felt 5000kg lifted off my shoulders. Srsly. 

You are striving for a life full of activity and experience and, perhaps even more, an environment where you would be able to forge a close bond with a person who can offer full emotional fulfilment.

You are working extremely hard trying to improve your image in the eyes of others. You are looking for acknowledgement from your peers and those who come into your sphere of influence. You want to be liked, not for what people think of you but for what you really are.

You are a dreamer and you seek perfection in any relationship that you may establish. Some of your ideas and standards are over the top so it may be a good idea to review your perception of life and accept people for what they are - not for what you would like them to be.

You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.

You don't like authority and you rebel against all forms of limitation. You are your own person and you intend to stay that way and to get on in the world simply by your hard work and determination.

wa fuck. This cannot be anymore accurate man. 

While I was waiting at the train station for Nadia this afternoon, the afternoon crowd passed by me as usual, but who knew man. It was anything but usual.

" Ha k sure. Nope. I'm a chinker. You know a chinese nigger. Just whacking my ropes and trying my notes on a fancy pussy. Cute and loosey. haha."

Just try rapping that. JUST TRY. This guy was trying to pick me up by calling me.. LOOSEY? PUSSY? SORRY MAN. He needs serious lessons. BUT thats not all.

" You're going for the duck tour now? haha. Dark wing fuck. Opps I mean fuck. I mean DUCK. Pretty ladies going on a fuck.. DUCK tour! woo hoo!"

KAN NI NA BU! Can anyone get anymore hornier than that? 


Oh btw, he is actually a tall gd looking chinese. 
Now, if he only knew how to shut his damn mouth.


What he said:

"Ok, before this gets out of hand. Anyway. The question at the end of the day is whether I would use force on a woman if I am angered. The answer is a definite YES. As in this case. I would have punched her in the face and win her in the war of words. Ya, using my mouth is definite plus plus but If I have to I must be prepared to use force on a woman to teach her to obey a man. Because that is the only authority I have over a woman If I were to lose in the war of words. A woman hones her skills to better a man in arguement so she can overstep a man if she needs to. Pressing the limit. And maxims like " never use force on a woman" because they are the weaker sex must be abandoned. I am not for abusing the weaker race. I love women but there are bitches out there who need to taught their place in society. Because we are a civilised society to this level doesn't mean age old biological authority doesn't hold. Women must respect the authority of man for what it is. Trying to step over a man's authority will have no good consequences and I am certainly not going to let them happen to me. Ever again."

This guy is SRSLY LIVING IN HIS OWN DREAM WORLD. SOMEONE PLS SLAP HIM!